Knowledge and Wisdom.

•February 11, 2008 • Leave a Comment

My initial questions about the first 3 chapters of the book of Matthew are common enough I guess.  If Joseph was not the biological father of Jesus, then why does Matthew use him in the genealogy?  Why does it say that the child will be named Emmanuel–when he was named Jesus?  What is the point of the fleeing to Egypt story?

And then comes the Christmas account in Matthew.  It is too bad that the Christmas story has lost a bit of its mysticism for me in the past several years.  Though straying back and forth from the person of Christ, I have always held his teachings to be True.  The great teacher aspect of Jesus is certainly dominant in my thinking.  The miraculous nature of His birth and the Grace of the Creator coming to dwell among us has fallen victim to skepticism–of the world and of my own thinking.  It is difficult as one attempts to gain more and more knowledge to hang on to that faith that a child displays.  There are so many theories and explanations in our world today that holding on to the basic belief that God is God and can do supernatural and miraculous things becomes challenging…. I hope to reestablish my faith in the mystery and mysticism of Christ.

It’s interesting to think of John the Baptist.  An outsider with the message of the kingdom of Heaven.

I could quote the “brood of vipers” line to you easily.  I have known that line for many years.  But after that John the B tells those folks to “bear fruit that befits repentance.”  Wow.  That pretty much settles the argument of free will vs. not.  Which one is it?  Yes.  Bear fruit that befits repentance.  You say you want a revolution.  Live it.  You say you want change.  Be it.  But guess what… if you really want all that stuff, you better surrender your will to the Christ.  Because if you don’t, then somehow, someway your will will betray you.  Once you think you have it conquered–it will begin to destroy you.

Off to pick up my bride at the airport.  Please pray for me and us so that right decisions can be made regarding our next station in life.

dt

Reinventing.

•February 6, 2008 • Leave a Comment

It turns out that as i was contemplating the ineptitude of public education officials to enact reform that i learned a little bit about myself.  I really am disenchanted with public education… not sure that’s gonna change any time soon.  As i stated in my previous post,  it seems that folks are always looking ahead to the next great thing that will surely bring about change and progress.  What we neglect are the things that are tried and true.  We know what works.  We have blueprints and research and exposition.

But i realize that the same is true for my life.  For some time now i’ve been searching for reform.  I thought for a while that it would come with turning 30.  After all that’s how old Jesus was when he started his outward ministry–please forgive the comparison as i know it is ludicrous.  But i’ve been 30 for a little over a week now and i’m still not reformed.  The magic of man marked time did nothing to resolve the issues of my soul.  And i look sometimes to different church bodies, or different jobs, or different music, or different books, or different this and different that.  All the while thinking that if i could just move there or be in that program then i would experience reform.

But the truth is–or the Truth if you will–that the methods of reform and regeneration are already in place.  I know what they are.  I have known what they are.  I will always know what they are.  They don’t change.  As long as my god is my belly and i am led about by my self interest and self delight then i will not be able to move forward.  It doesn’t matter how much pretending or pretension i claim about my motives.  It doesn’t matter how much of a sound exterior i can project.  The path is more time poring over the Word.  The path is more time–real time, not fleeting moments–searching for the Way in prayer and contemplation.  The path is real communication and community and communion with my brothers and sisters.  The path is sacrificially and perhaps uncomfortably serving and loving folks who aren’t like me and may not even like me.  The path is Jesus.

But again… typing on a blog and hoping that folks will read is more of the old.  Practice.  Action.  Faith lived out is real reform.  Real regeneration.  Real–dare i say–salvation.  For now, I have real trouble spending a few minutes in prayer.  I can’t pretend that the path is easy.  I am so easily tempted and so easily taken astray by my selfish desires that most attempts at reform seem futile.  And the madness of the world is no help for my overly active mind either.  I am longing for change.  I am longing for peace.

See… even now my mind wanders from Truth to whether or not i should say “i long” instead of “i am longing”…  I really am crazy i think.

I will start with Matthew.  I will start by posting my reflections on Matthew… Do I believe?  yeah kinda… will you help my unbelief?

dt

Complaining and Learning…

•February 3, 2008 • Leave a Comment

I’m beginning to learn some things that I’ve needed to learn for quite some time.  I want to go through a bit of my thought process as to how I am coming to this understanding.  So forgive me if these few posts seem like a LOST episode–where few answers are given and often more questions arise.  By the way, is it Thursday yet?

We are starting a new program at our high school in the form of a 9th grade academy.  That’s all well and good–in fact I signed up for it–,but i became a bit disgruntled at the end of last week as i learned more about  the process.  You see, the folks who are in the loop are working on a grant from the feds to the tune of a million or so.  It turns out that in order to receive this grant that we are going to pursue “small learning communities”  throughout the whole school over the next several years.  And apparently this group called SERVE will be employed through this grant money to come and lead our staff in professional development… This is not your mama’s prof. dvlpmt… no these folks specialize in coming in and restructuring the school.  That means fundamental changes in teaching styles, strategies, and most likely an increase of paperwork for teachers as we are “evaluated” and “assessed” on our new professional development is instituted.

Now, i could go on about how the leadership at our particular school has shown very little leadership on these issues.  In fact, very few teachers are probably even aware that the 9th grade academy is destined to blossom into a restructuring of our entire school.  Few know because the administration has kept secrets the decisions that they have made, and have stalled and floundered over many other decisions yet to be made…. but that’s not the crux of the issue for me.

For me, it is a slap in the face.  I’m not worried about increased accountability.  I’m for it.  I want like filling out a bunch of paperwork that will supposedly show that i’m a good teacher, but i can do that, because my practice is sound.  I don’t pretend that i’m a master teacher.  I have a long way to go and plenty to learn, and I’m ready to begin that learning.  But i’m tired of listening to politicians and administrations blame me and other teachers for the failing nature of the public school system.

First of all, the place where the students are failing is at home.  Parents are not taking their responsibility seriously.  Now, I’m not one to place the blame at the parents and state that my role is a teacher not a parent.  I signed up for public school duty because i wanted to make an impact in the lives of students who didn’t have the proper influence at home.  But for so called leaders in our society who want admit that until we get creative and serious about affecting change in the home environments of our students, then we will continue to leave children behind.

Secondly,  the processes by which this SERVE group and whoever else wants to improve and restructure our school are ALREADY IN PLACE.  There are evaluation methods in place for teachers that call for active involvement and sound preparation from teachers.  If administrators don’t take the responsibility seriously to hold teachers accountable now, why will they when this new group comes in?  It seems a convenient rationale for asking for more money to me.  But maybe i’m too cynical…  Why do we look for answers that are already in front of us?  Why can’t we accept what is true and real and pursue those things?  What is about new programs and shiny exteriors that draws us away from what is right towards an illusion of what is right?

dt

The Mind of Hamlet.

•January 21, 2008 • Leave a Comment

I commented on one of my good friend’s posts.  He also posted the entire letter from the Birmingham Jail by Dr. King.  It is certainly worth a read.  I will most likely begin the new semester in World History by reading excerpts if not the entirety of this epistle of peace.

My comment is below.  I post it here, because my next thread of thought will develop the ideas in my words.

“Certainly he was not a perfect man, but he was certainly the man God had chosen for the task.”

This is a sentiment–a Truth even–that we have forgotten about in our society. In our quest to make everything either or, right or wrong, we have forgotten that people used by God are still people. We denigrate each other and are quick to point out flaws in our opponents and our enemies. We have forgotten that the story of people is a story of flaws. Currently, we are stuck trading barbs back and forth with each other or each side to battle over whose flaws are the worst.

We should make the discussion about ideas again… about Truth. We are all in need of Forgiveness. We are all desperate for confirmation. We long to see Glory. But we are weak and impatient. We are frivolous. We need strength and perseverance, and that truly only generates from one source.

When we realize that about each other–that the Designer uses people with flaws and all to accomplish his purpose–then we will progress. We should learn it about ourselves as well. Not listening or following through due to self pity is a dangerous place to find oneself as well. Dishearteningly, I find myself in that place much too often.

Here’s to January snows and bonfires of the mind.
dt

Hope?

•January 15, 2008 • Leave a Comment

The column by Patty Patty Buch Buch today emphasizes why we need fundamental change in this nation.  Both parties promises are unfounded and unaffordable.  We need to reassess our values and learn again–or for the first time for many of us to sacrifice.  I tell my students that the “American Dream” is that our kids will be a little better off than we were.  That dream is in danger. 

 

Subprime Nation

By Patrick Buchanan

Since it began to give credit ratings to nations in 1917, Moody’s has rated the United Statesw triple-A. U.S. Treasury bonds have been seen as the most secure investment on earth. When crises erupt, nervous money seeks out the world’s great safe harbor, the United States. That reputation is now in peril.

Last week, Moody’s warned that if the United States fails to rein in the soaring cost of Social Security, Medicare and Medicaid, the nation’s credit rating will be down-graded within a decade.

Our political parties seem oblivious. Republicans, save Ron Paul, are all promising to expand the U.S. military and maintain all of our worldwide commitments to defend and subsidize scores of nations.

Democrats, with entitlement costs drowning the federal budget in red ink, are proposing a new entitlement — universal health coverage for the near 50 million who do not have it — another magnet for illegal aliens. Moody’s is telling America it needs a time of austerity, while the U.S. government is behaving like the governments we used to bail out.

California has already hit the wall. With an economy as large as a G-8 nation, the Golden State is looking at a $14 billion deficit in 2009 and a $3 billion shortfall in 2008. Gov. Schwarzenegger has called for slashing prison staff by 6,000, including 2,000 guards, early release of 22,000 inmates, closing four dozen state parks and a 10 percent across-the-board cut in all state agencies. The Democratic legislature is demanding tax hikes, which would drive more taxpayers back over the mountains whence their fathers came.

Meanwhile, Washington drifts mindlessly toward the maelstrom. With the dollar sinking, oil surging to $100 a barrel, the Dow having its worst January in memory, foreclosures mounting, credit card debt going rotten, and consumers and businesses unable or unwilling to borrow, we appear headed into recession.

If so, tax revenue will fall and spending on unemployment will surge. The price of the stimulus packages both parties are preparing will further add to the deficit and further imperil the U.S. credit rating. This all comes in the year that the first of the baby boomers, born in 1946, reach early retirement and eligibility for Social Security.

To stave off recession, the Fed appears anxious to slash interest rates another half-point, if not more. That will further weaken the dollar and raise the costs of the imports to which we have become addicted. While all this is bad news for the Republicans, it is worse news for the republic. As we save nothing, we must borrow both to pay for the imported oil and foreign manufactures upon which we have become dependent.

We are thus in the position of having to borrow from Europe to defend Europe, of having to borrow from China and Japan to defend Chinese and Japanese access to Gulf oil, and of having to borrow from Arab emirs, sultans and monarchs to make Iraq safe for democracy.

We borrow from the nations we defend so that we may continue to defend them. To question this is an unpardonable heresy called “isolationism.”

And the chickens of globalism are coming home to roost.

We let Europe to get away with imposing value-added taxes averaging 15 percent on our exports to them, while they rebate that value-added tax on their exports to us. Thus, the euro has almost doubled in value against the dollar in the Bush years, as NATO Europe begins to bail out on Iraq and Afghanistan.

We sat still as Japan protected her markets and dumped high quality goods into ours and China undervalued its currency to suck jobs, technology and factories out of the United States. Now, China and Japan have $2 trillion in cash reserves. The Arabs have an equal amount of petrodollars. Both are headed here to spend their depreciating dollars snapping up U.S. assets — banks, ports, highways, defense contractors.

America, to pay her bills, has begun to sell herself to the world.

Its balance sheet gutted by the subprime mortgage crisis, Citicorp got a $7.5 billion injection from Abu Dhabi and is now fishing for $1 billion from Kuwait and $9 billion from China. Beijing has put $5 billion into Morgan Stanley and bought heavily into Barclays Bank.

Merrill-Lynch, ravaged by subprime mortgage losses, sold part of itself to Singapore for $7.5 billion and is seeking another $3 billion to $4 billion from the Arabs. Swiss-based UBS, taking a near $15 billion write-down in subprime mortgages, has gotten an infusion of $10 billion from Singapore.

Bain Capital is partnering with China’s Huawei Technologies in a buyout of 3Com, the U.S. company that provides the technology that protects Pentagon computers from Chinese hackers.

This self-indulgent generation has borrowed itself into unpayable debt. Now the folks from whom we borrowed to buy all that oil and all those cars, electronics and clothes are coming to buy the country we inherited. We are prodigal sons, and the day of reckoning approaches.

NFL Playoffs.

•January 4, 2008 • Leave a Comment

What a wonderful time of year.  Bowl season–though they should have a playoff system–, ACC basketball, and the NFL playoffs.  January pretty much rules.  Not to mention I’ll be 30 on the 28th.   here are my picks for the playoffs this year:

NFC  =  Redskins over Seahawks;  Bucs over Giants;  Bucs over Packers;  Cowboys over Redskins;  Cowboys over Bucs

AFC = Jaguars over Steelers;  Chargers over Titans;  Pats over Jags;  Chargers over Colts;  Pats over Chargers;

Super Bowl =  Patriots 38  Cowboys 30

dt

Bad Rap.

•December 26, 2007 • Leave a Comment

“He’s a mean one…”  yeah that may be true.  But overall, the Grinch gets a raw deal when it comes to the holiday season.  The poor guy has had to listen to all that racket for 50+ years.  He looks down on Whoville and sees what appears to be a society awash in commercialism and material addiction.  How can you blame him for wanting to stop such madness?

Ok, so he may go a little too far with taking the roast beast and the candy canes from Cindy Lou Who, but at least he was determined.  And after climbing all the way to top of the mountain with his sleigh full of Who toys, he experiences redemption.  He realizes that the Whos are not singing because of all the stuff they get, but because it’s Christmas.  How was the Grinch to know?  It’s certainly not true of our own society.  Most would  cry “boo hoo” when they awoke to find nothing on December 25.   But when the Grinch realizes what the Whos think of Christmas his heart grows 3 sizes.  He trumpets into town and delivers all of the wuzzles and Who Hash and even gets to carve the roast beast.

It speaks volumes of the Whos to be willing to allow this man that seemed despicable to join in their feast mere hours after his “wonderful, awful” plan to stop Christmas.  But isn’t the Grinch everyman?  At least he was open about his distaste.

So, the next time someone refers to you as the Grinch remind them that the Grinch comes true in the end.  That’s the story of Christmas after all isn’t it?  “Christmas time is in our grasp as long as we have hands to clasp.”

dt

Reconstruction.

•December 15, 2007 • Leave a Comment

“I too am not a bit tamed, I too am untranslatable,I sound my barbaric yawp over the roofs of the world. ” –WW

Currently I am sitting at my iMac while 3 hispanic gentlemen patch my house back together. They are putting up drywall on the ceilings and the edges of what used to be our encasing walls. Two of the men do not speak English…. well Juan said he was hungry yesterday and the older man–Angel I think–said that it was cold, but other than that it is all Spanish. I just wish I knew what they were talking about. It’s not that I’m paranoid they are talking about me. They may be, but I’m not too worried about that. The thing is that they are probably talking about the same things that most all humans talk about when communicating with another human. But for me it is so strange because I do not understand. Orlando speaks very good English. He’s the point man, and they do a fantastic job.

I’ve learned quite a bit over the last few days. I never knew what a header, or a bottom plate, or a hog-back, or a saws all… It makes me feel pretty good. I’ll feel even better once everything is finished. But will it ever really be finished? I woke up this morning and piled all of the former drywall and took it to the dump. Then I picked up the two portions of the couch and carried them in by myself. I unleashed my inner beast. :) It feels good to wake up in the morning and be productive. I guess teaching doesn’t give me that type of sensation lately.

Of course, it’s hard to understand what we are supposed to be producing in the education industry.

Rambling as usual…dt

Micro Revolution

•December 4, 2007 • Leave a Comment

The winds of change are blowing briskly through my constitution.  You like that?:)  I see a need for change in a lot of the institutions with which i am associated.  The government is weighed down with bureaucratic excess, corrupt leadership, and an apathetic populous that cares more about Survivor (or whatever) than they do about the pressing issues of our time. 

The church is plagued with that same type of apathy in many cases.  There’s also a renewed battle over theology and practice.  The leftists claim that the “evangelical Southern Baptists” are corrupt and are using the scripture to push political power and domination.  The right claims that the left is too weak on sin, and is squishy when it comes to conviction.  The same old stuff really.  Both sides seem to claim an air of supremacy.  Both think they have it all figured out–when in fact stepping outside of those particular mindsets seems to be the key.  Moderation anyone? 

Furthermore, there seems to be a lack of real leadership in the church.  If there was ever a time for fresh thinking–for a revision of commonly held beliefs.  Here’s some freshness.  It’s difficult for me to hear about all of the reform and organic growth and community, and then to realize that few people will go out of their way to engage me in any form of real conversation.  Maybe that’s whining.  Sorry.  If those in the church don’t realize that it’s time to move beyond small talk and the back and forth of polite society then who will? 

Education is another institution in dire need of reform.  It amazes me to hear all of the people who understand that testing diminishes the ability of teachers to convey critical thinking skills and that critical thinking is exactly what we need.  Also, the system that is in place perpetuates mediocrity by not allowing exceptional teachers the ability to earn more and by allowing mediocre to poor teachers to remain entrenched in the system without much fear of losing their job for average performance. 

So that brings me to the micro level.  Me.  I posted the 6 things that I wanted to pursue a few months ago, and I’ve achieved some of those.  But there a few more that I wanted to share with the blogosphere– things that I want to reform in my own mind and in my own practice.  The impostor exposed if you will.

I want to temper my attitudes and responses to what i lovingly call ’stupid people.’  I want to be more deliberate in spending time with my wife.  I want to moderate the spirits i intake on the weekends.  I do not want to give up weekends by the fire with spirits, however.  The conversation and relationships that have been forged over those fires are irreplaceable to me.  I wish that I had relationships such as these in a church community. 

I just feel a bit empty lately.  I want to see change.  I want to change.  I’m tired of consumption.  Tired of the conveyor belt of life.  Where did meaning go?  How do we convey meaning to the younger generation?  How do we find out ourselves?

dt

Republican Youtube Debate

•November 29, 2007 • Leave a Comment

Here’s how I ranked the candidates from last night’s debate. 

1) Ron Paul — the rest of the candidates seemed to be smirking and laughing at him during his responses.  To me that says that everyone knows that the old republic is no more.  We have been and will continue to expand into empire.  But my boy stood strong and called on the Revolution–not to mention explaining well the ideological conspiracy of the Trilateral Commission and the North American Union.

2)Mike Huckabee– if I can’t be for Ron Paul, then I suppose I will go with this guy.  He’s right on energy, he’s sensible on immigration, he’s tough on terrorists, and he’s reasonable about his religion and convictions.  Probably a big spender, but there’s only one who’s not.

3)Hunter/Tancredo – these guys are kinda the immigration candidates.  I thought they did well in explaining their positions on a very difficult topic.  I don’t necessarily agree with their positions, but debate wise this combo seems to be dictating their position to the other candidates.

4)  Giuliani – He took a cheap shot at Romney, but other than that he explained his positions in an average way.

5) McCain – Good on waterboarding.  He’s a tough old bastard.

6) Romney – He’s a swindler.  He’s a scheister.  To avoid answering questions he continues to say that he would like to see it, but “the time is not now.”  Give me a break.  Take a stance you stinking Ken Doll.  I will vote for Hillary over Mitt Romney in a heartbeat.

7) Thompson — he looked really old.  He stumbled through answers while trying to sound countryfied and just like plain folks.  It’s like he’s reading from a script of what his advisers told him he should try and get in… Of course I know most of them are doing that… It’s only a matter of time before Thompson’s boat is sunk. 

less than 900 hours til Iowa…

dt